Monday, October 15, 2012
HOW I LOST 7.2 POUNDS IN ONE DAY WITHOUT DIETING.
October 15, 1968 the world welcomed a beautiful new shining soul in a tiny 7.2 pound, 21 inch,
baby boy's body.
WELCOME TO THE WORLD JAMES MAXWELL LARRISON. THANK YOU FOR COMING HERE AND MAKING IT A BETTER PLACE.
We called him Baby Max for a long time. There are sooo many adorable pictures I will post when I get my new computer. This one is Max in a box at 9 months and Jim in a box as an adult.
Still can't seem to get out of the box.Celebrate the kindness, gentleness, integrity, ambition, honesty of this man while he is in the box.
His brilliance is manifested in his choice of wife. Jennifer is the quintessential mother of Dryver 11, and Stryde 9. Also, a good cook, teacher, decorator, tennis player, party giver, friend and even runs marathons. Her virtues are way too long to write here. I have learned so much from her. I admired and envied her relationship with her mother. She is missed.
OK, this is supposed to be about JIM. And the reality is we are never alone. We are all connected by love.You can read more about Jim on Facebook, twitter, his website, and google.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY MAX.
Love, your MOM
Sunday, October 14, 2012
NOT THE "F" WORD AGAIN
One of the most difficult things for me, has been to be responsible for the "F" words.
"FOCUS" AND "FOLLOW-THROUGH"
I am formulating flowing follow-through formulas to facilitate fortitude in finally finding freedom.
So, a plan. "F" DO IT NOW.
I am packing, writing things down, reaching out to others, smiling, making phone calls, throwing things out, giving things away, including FURNITURE. If it hasn't been needed in 20 years, perhaps it won't be missed in the next 2 years.
The challenge is how do I resist buying an Elvis Wastebasket from the thrift store for $4.50
It may be difficult. It would be so perfect in my Elvis bathroom. The thrift store gives a 10% discount for old ladies and is for a good cause. Help!!!!
Tomorrow I have an appointment to see my internist. On Tuesday I have an appointment to meet with the property management to state my position on what has happened. I do not want to leave with resentment and misunderstanding. On Wednesday I get a massage and on Thursday I move stuff to new home.
Bottom line. I am moving forward. "F"orward, another "F" word. There is a bit of "F"ear but now I am going to "F"orge "F"orward.
Enough of that silliness. Trying to "F"ind some "F"ruit to eat. Tired of "F"asting. Ready for a "Feast.
Till tomorrow ... Feel Free to ______ Fill in the blank.
"FOCUS" AND "FOLLOW-THROUGH"
I am formulating flowing follow-through formulas to facilitate fortitude in finally finding freedom.
So, a plan. "F" DO IT NOW.
I am packing, writing things down, reaching out to others, smiling, making phone calls, throwing things out, giving things away, including FURNITURE. If it hasn't been needed in 20 years, perhaps it won't be missed in the next 2 years.
The challenge is how do I resist buying an Elvis Wastebasket from the thrift store for $4.50
It may be difficult. It would be so perfect in my Elvis bathroom. The thrift store gives a 10% discount for old ladies and is for a good cause. Help!!!!
Tomorrow I have an appointment to see my internist. On Tuesday I have an appointment to meet with the property management to state my position on what has happened. I do not want to leave with resentment and misunderstanding. On Wednesday I get a massage and on Thursday I move stuff to new home.
Bottom line. I am moving forward. "F"orward, another "F" word. There is a bit of "F"ear but now I am going to "F"orge "F"orward.
Enough of that silliness. Trying to "F"ind some "F"ruit to eat. Tired of "F"asting. Ready for a "Feast.
Till tomorrow ... Feel Free to ______ Fill in the blank.
Saturday, October 13, 2012
WITHOUT AWARENESS WE CANNOT CHANGE ... WITHOUT ACTION WE WILL NOT CHANGE.
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I remember these words coming out of my mouth at a workshop I was presenting for Woman Within several years ago. I remember thinking " THAT'S GOOD" I also remember how impactful those words can be and the responsibility they carry.
Well I am fixin' to get ready, to consider, and prepare to honor them.
MY TODOTODAY list.
AWARENESS ...my finances are disorganized
ACTION... Get the bills together
AWARENESS ... The bills are all over the place
ACTION... find a cute box to put them in
AWARENESS ... There are many boxes to be organized
ACTION ... line them up by size and/or color
AWARENESS ... there are so many covers for the bins that don't have matches.
ACTION ... sort them by color and shape
AWARENESS ... my tododo list holds about 250 thiings for today.
ACTION... categorize it.
AWARENESS when categorized it needs to be prioritized
ACTION ...categorize the prioritization by urgent, do now, very important, delegate, maybe for Christmas
AWARENESS ... this is way to much for one day
ACTION ... take a nap.
HAVE A GREAT DAY.
I remember these words coming out of my mouth at a workshop I was presenting for Woman Within several years ago. I remember thinking " THAT'S GOOD" I also remember how impactful those words can be and the responsibility they carry.
Well I am fixin' to get ready, to consider, and prepare to honor them.
MY TODOTODAY list.
AWARENESS ...my finances are disorganized
ACTION... Get the bills together
AWARENESS ... The bills are all over the place
ACTION... find a cute box to put them in
AWARENESS ... There are many boxes to be organized
ACTION ... line them up by size and/or color
AWARENESS ... there are so many covers for the bins that don't have matches.
ACTION ... sort them by color and shape
AWARENESS ... my tododo list holds about 250 thiings for today.
ACTION... categorize it.
AWARENESS when categorized it needs to be prioritized
ACTION ...categorize the prioritization by urgent, do now, very important, delegate, maybe for Christmas
AWARENESS ... this is way to much for one day
ACTION ... take a nap.
HAVE A GREAT DAY.
Friday, October 12, 2012
Well I got the apartment. Teeny, tiny, itsy bitsy and perfect for what I need at this time. Did I say it was small? I will not be able to move stuff from one room to the next since there is really only one room.
It is a separate little, teeny, tiny, cottage in the back of the home of a very old couple. I mean REALLY OLD. They are older than me even and thought I was about 60ish. Love them.
Negotiating with them was a bit of a challenge until Steven 85 went and put in his hearing aid. They both use walkers and are beautiful souls. I found myself NOT negotiating for a better deal, and now have excitement about it. Since I will be going to the UK and travelling a bit after, I wanted to move in after I returned. Well, they could not figure out how to do that so I paid my deposit and will begin moving right away. I will come home from my trip almost immediately.
Did I say they were old? They have been married 60 years. More about them later. I love them.They love me. He asked me what kind of counselling I did. That is always a difficult question for me to answer but whatever I said he responded by saying "I believe the Divine is within us.Not to be searched for on the outside." Blew me away.
MY yard has about 12 fruit trees and lovely roses and I have a front porch waiting for a rocker.Pictures later.
So today, I am packing, writing, paying bills, searching for money in the couch, making a schedule for new workshops and stuff and getting ready for my trip and preparing for a meeting with the Property Managers of this place about my experiences. I am meeting with them on Tuesday to negotiate for money Abby and I spent because of mismanagement of the
Springtails. Tomorrow's blog.
This is one of the suitcase I will use. It was decorated by Dryver and Stryde several years ago.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
TWO DAYS IN A ROW
Who wudda thunk. Two days in a row.
Thanks to those who responded and everyone please keep sending energy or money.
The wonderful apartment I wrote about yesterday didn't work out. It was not in the location I needed at all. Fortunately I drove out there yesterday to check it out and when I came home discovered the universe had found a better one for me and placed it on Craig's list. I am dropping my application off at noon today. it is teeny tiny and perfect for me to write, focus and sleep. My first instinct was to create a "nuns" cell as they used to call them.. Now I am going to create a bit of heaven with Elvis and crystals, and beautiful things.
More later on that.
Actually, I am packing already. Getting rid of old, old stuff that has been moved from one state to another in case "i may need it sometime." Good news, ... I found Halloween cards I bought a couple of years ago and now am addressing and sending them. Also, found some cute cards for the celebration of the Milenium Jan 1 2000.
So much to do in a year that could have been done over a period of 77 years. Remorse? Shame? Guilt? Probably.. However, immense amount of gratitude to have been given this opportunity. I am excited and tingly at the shift.
My new mantra is ... IT IS NEVER TOO LATE TO DO THE RIGHT THING. Of course, that RIGHT THING is also in the world of "bigger than me"
More tomorrow.
Thanks to those who responded and everyone please keep sending energy or money.
The wonderful apartment I wrote about yesterday didn't work out. It was not in the location I needed at all. Fortunately I drove out there yesterday to check it out and when I came home discovered the universe had found a better one for me and placed it on Craig's list. I am dropping my application off at noon today. it is teeny tiny and perfect for me to write, focus and sleep. My first instinct was to create a "nuns" cell as they used to call them.. Now I am going to create a bit of heaven with Elvis and crystals, and beautiful things.
More later on that.
Actually, I am packing already. Getting rid of old, old stuff that has been moved from one state to another in case "i may need it sometime." Good news, ... I found Halloween cards I bought a couple of years ago and now am addressing and sending them. Also, found some cute cards for the celebration of the Milenium Jan 1 2000.
So much to do in a year that could have been done over a period of 77 years. Remorse? Shame? Guilt? Probably.. However, immense amount of gratitude to have been given this opportunity. I am excited and tingly at the shift.
My new mantra is ... IT IS NEVER TOO LATE TO DO THE RIGHT THING. Of course, that RIGHT THING is also in the world of "bigger than me"
More tomorrow. Wednesday, October 10, 2012
AFGO***
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| outside my window |
So once a year is better than none. It is amazing to me how in my own little warped mind, I am in the belief that my blog is always current. I did enjoy reading the old ones. Almost like news to me.
Oh where oh where did my bloggie go?
It is also amazing to me how little changes in my life.
More amazing is how I hold the belief that I am always doing things differently. Amazing Grace.
Any of those blogs could be posted today, even my birthday one, although I am now 2 year older.
OH WELL. I guess I could consider myself fortunate to have been given such a long and healthy life. I TRULY CONSIDER MYSELF FORTUNATE, not always been the case.
Here is the problem. All the things I put down on my todotoday list remain exactly the same , with about twenty additional projects on the list each year.
I have been given AFGO* ... exquisitely painful ... from which I could NOT escape . even with all my skills of denial, manipulation, big words, little words, smiles, compliments, etc. I was unable to get away from the hugest lesson of my life. I was unable to get away from ego myself.
Long story short ... This lesson came in the form of a 69 year old male who brags he is "full of the Holy Spirit" manager of my apartment building, whom I JUDGE to be racist, liar, rude, manipulative, lazy, intimidating, crude, sexist, blah, blah, blah. Never follows through, the place is a disaster. Even safety as well as cleanliness issues. I took pictures of some of the problems.
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| lovely garden |
When i complained to the property managers/owners the fact that the stove/hood fan did not work when I moved in 2 years ago and after many promises on his part it had not been fixed. . He was furious.This led to some very ugly behavior and guess what... He then proceeded to call me EVIL. It was terrible. The things I reported were true so I am innocent there. Almost. I believed I was stuck living here. I was a victim. Lots more to the story. He claims he can see through people like glass AND I AM EVIL. The question is, why did it bother me so much.
Right now, I GET IT. AFGO*. It may have taken a brick in the head,as Marlene Nappa used to say, to get through this dense wounded ego but I now welcome it.
For 77 years I have lived the story "you better be good and not cause problems or you will be sent away" I decided to test it out as a lie.
Truth: I can be authentic, in my truth and act with integrity AND still have the right to be.
I am moving out. My choice. With peace.
To a wonderful place the universe placed on Craig's list for me as well as a new office space and a new commitment to take action on at least 2,956 items on my list. I am divesting of almost all my material possessions and moving into a furnished studio apt. as well as renting a fabulous office. I am working with several people in structuring my workshops and publishing at least one of the three books I have started ... in a year. I am open to being in connection with my friends. I commit to be consciously aware of every breath. If you believe that one, you must be watching too much news on politicians.
While there are many ways in my life where I have not been totally authentic and perhaps out of integrity ... finances, follow through, procrastination on and on ... I blatantly state "I am always in connection with my soul and yours as far as love and acceptance." as much as humanly possible.
So, email me if you want to know what AFGO stands for. jkpsoul@aol.com
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
INSPIRATION FROM THE UNIVERSE
Anyway, rather than attempting to fill you in on all that has been going on, I will give you a bit of a smile for today.
I am living in San Diego and love to walk in the early morning. Thus the picture from my balcony.
Having been inspired last evening by an amazing seminar at LandMark Education on INTEGRITY I got up full of energy and determination to step into a spiritual authentic space. I would go for a walk and be open to any messages and new awarenesses. I went digging in the laundry basket for some comfy walking clothes and went out into the cool crisp delicious morning air. I was listening to MCKS and the Kabalistic Lord's prayer for inspiration. As Master Choa connected with the Forehead Chakra, the entry way to inspiration I saw a flick of someting on the sidewalk. I almost stepped on it. Curious I decided to check it out in case it was litter, so turned around and what I discovered carried a direct message from the Divine.
It was a pair of MY black underpanties that apparently been lodged in the leg of the pants I picked out of the laundry basket. I picked them up in awe at how blessed I am to be so closely connected and receive such clear messages....
DO YOUR LAUNDRY.
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